hyh movin out

i told everyone i moved out and i am happy cause i am but now my brothers is moving out. he is so sick of our mom screwing up his relationships with girls that he just gave up and i dont balme him. my mom she wouldnt let him do any thing at all and he is now 18. he wasnt allowed to go anywhere with out her permission and had to do everything she said and her rules are like prision i mean it is like she didnt want us to have a life,and all she ever do was bitch adn moan about everything it got so annoying and i am so happy for him he deserves to be happy hell we all deserber to be happy lol and now he is going to be. lol

sad

dont u just hate it when people in ur life that really matter have ta leave...it is so sad cause they cant even help it cause they r going to college and they say they would stay if that wasnt in the way but how can u ever no for sure. it is sad to think that maybe they r lying to u but how will u ever really no for sure...all those times u shared could just be lost in those sad hours spent in ur room thinking bout all the things u miss and then realizing it is all gone and what r u going to do cause they were ur life and now it is empty cause they r gone,,,,what do u do then when life just might feel like it is over. some people eat ice cream but what if u dont wanna look in the mirror and see urself looking like ur fifty pounds heavier than the fat chick rite next to u. and while ur thinking bout how big she is she is probably thinking about her lost friends and how she wishes that ice cream didnt make her look so fat. life is an endless cycle of ups and downs but when does it stop and how do u say no. how can u fix broken glass mend a shattered heart..maybe u cant but the truth is all of our problems they started with other people and dont lie. they did the reason most peope cry is because of what other say and the fads yeah they r because of different people rite..our whole life is built on someone eles opion but does it have to no but we let it...well back to the losing of someone why is it so hard to let go why cant we just say screw u to the person and be done with it was do others got to get in the way of ur happiness but the truth is ud never be happy with out the others either why does life gotta be so confusing?

guys they suck

i was datin this guy named brody but he was n love with this one chick his ex but she didnt like him ne more...but when she saw me with him she started to want him back and before me and him were anything she and i were really good friends. needless to say we werent that good of friends anymore and so me and him broke up because we thought it wasnt such a good idea anymore. and they were gonna get back together but he started to act like a jerk agian and of course stupid me wanted him back and he came an we got in truoble but oh and i hooked her up with his best friend yeah sounds like a soap rite lol but now they r datin and i am with someone eles and he replace me and his ex with a weird looking gitl who i feel sorry for because she doesnt no how dumb and of an ass he can be poor her oh well but now he still makes her feel like crap lmao guys they just suck and yes me and her are good friends again lol

life is messed

i moved out of my house like 2 months ago. it was hell and when i mean hell i mean like it was prosion because my adopted parents are crazy and super controling. and i rebeled and what happeneds when u rebel they get mad cause they think their way is the only way even if it is crazy. so i ended up where i am now which isnt bad but they wont even talk to me...lame isnt it...but i bet ur wondering why they r so crazy what makes them any different than any other crazy mom and dad... well for starters they had cameras yes cameras to watch us and they made us watch them whenever they caught us doing anything bad but that isnt the crazyness yet just wait or read. i had to get up before school to do my chores yeah like sweep the house and dust and windex and wipe things off with a damp rag. i did my own laundry which was ok by me. i wasnt allowed to hardly go anywhere and i had to have all a's and b's. i used to get in trouble for reading books to much but what eles is there to do when i wasnt allowed to watch tv on the week days during school. and i always had to help pick up the outside but that was a givin. i would wash the dogs like at least once a week and i help always clean off the table and i helped when ever they asked and i never once left without permission. i have been invited to at least thirty birthday parties but i only got to go to one and that was when i was 17 and i think they let me just because it was at a church. my mom made me stay in band but now i kinda like it but hey she knew i didnt like it. i like piano and she made me quit that of course sounds like them. i wasnt allowed to have myspace and i didnt have direct computer acess they had a password on the computer. the tv channels where blocked as where the movie settings and they never let me go to the city pool because we had a 4 foot deep pool yeah it is nice to dive it to that lol but u could kill urself doing it lol. ur room was always under inspection and if u left something out u would get yelled at for it. they just dont understand me.
and to make things worse for them i am bi and they dont agree with that and i dont care i cant help it and i would if i could so dont tell me i can i have tried u cant help who u like really. but appearttly my mom has been dissing that to my little sis and is trying to get me to look really bad yeah love my mom. oh and i got her a tanning card to sun on the run guess what she sent it back yup not suprise there. she claims to everyone i am not talking to her but she is the one who wont talk to me...she acts like i ripped her heart out yet she wont allow me anywhere close. she is a liar looking for sympethy. excuse my spelling. and she just recently put my sis on birth control and she is only 15 she doesnt need anything put in her head that says it is ok to have sex awwww they r just insane. but behind closed door only...on the outside everyone thinks we r one big loving family but we r not and dont let they fool u just look into theyre eyes and ull see the pain the lies the hate the tears that pour all the time